So so.. ^^

Just a short post again

I don't think the weather was too bad...

Even though it looked like this in the morning!

But Hugs and Kisses

Tihi

This was my weather today! How was yours? :D

 About 25 Celsius ;)

Hopefully it's like this during the weekend and next week too ;)

Nostalgia!

Okay so time to start planning my future now yea?

How many children, who to marry?

I need feelings! some of you out there know what I'm talking about
I need feelings..

But now to the nostagia part!

Was going to start writing with a friend but wanted to start off with something random
and suddenly these words came in my head! "Lonely I'm mr lonely, I have nobody to call my own"

Love that song  Mr Lonely - Akon

And that song got me thinking (for some reason) about another nostagic "tune"
The sweet Dilemma - Nelly ft. Kelly Rowland

And the third my absolute favourite! Akon - Blame it on me Amazing! Love <3

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Why is it that everytime I do something I feel like I've done something wrong?

Not for the things I do, but for how people react afterwards..

Talking behind my back or over my head about it so much fun! ah well

But Hugs and Kisses

What is love 

but a flower ready to bloom

What is fate

but the truth in your eyes

What is hope

but the knowledge of life after death

Plans

Okay, I've been away for a few days now
haven't had anything to write about
or just not felt like it
I don't know..

As I've been tidying and cleaning and what not today
I've been thinking
daydreaming if you will
but how wonderful does this sound?

Think countryside, big fields, mountains if you wish,
A villa or a cottage, a barn, stables..
A husband, children, a dog
Two horses, three cows, about ten hens..
little to none electricity
fireplace/s.

To me that sound like heaven how about you?

Just to bad that won't happen..
at least not in a near future. Oh well someday!

Guess I will have to marry a rich man to get that or at least a man who can provide for all of us?
Especially if I want to be home during the day to take care of the children and animals.

I want to be an actress, maybe I should pursuit that goal/dream first?
I don't know what else I could do for work!
A midwife? sure.. But then I would have to study, and I can't afford that, I really don't want to borrow money
not for anything!
so I need to find a job that will help me on my way to make my dreams come true.

But Hugs and Kisses

I'm back!

Okay, so now I'm back from horseriding!
It was so much fun!
Been on a hack and I cantered
Only cantered in school before so it was new and exciting
William was very on it today, I didn't need to tell him twice to do something
But he is very strong so my fingers hurt at the moment
The first canter didn't go so very well I didn't relax and I forgot to breathe
But it went better for every time
It was lovely
I need to do it again :D

But Hugs and Kisses

Riding

Just got up, getting ready for horseriding
Don't have any shoes to wear.. Will have to borrow there today...
But that is just how it is

Chased in my dream again..
because we hade come in contact with som special chemicals
That made people superheros and that could change your apperance
so you looked like any one you wanted or well you needed a part of that persons DNA
to be put in the chemicals to.. very strange..
One of the boys became a dog in his superhero form
When you were in a stage between human and superhero, you were really slow, it vas so hard to move
But one of the girls noticed that it was in that stage you could get new powers.
She got on a skateboard and after she'd been on it for a while
it pulverized, and she could fly!

A very odd dream but I sort of liked it somehow :)

But Hugs and Kisses

Shake it up

So stuck on watching Shake it up today, it is hilarious ^^
Best episode I've seen so far must be Show it up
Amazing :)

And Started reading a new blog today
not much written in it yet but I like what I've read so far
It is a short stories blog, Eliore JT ;)
Want the next part to be up tomorrow but hopefully beginning of next week if we are all lucky :)

I really should go to bed, just going to watch one more episode of shake it up

But Hugs and Kisses

About...

...Thank you!

I need to explain myself I feel..
I never meant to sound arrogant or anything..
I just meant that everyone has talents and
the one I can think of that I have is acting
It is the only thing I acctually feel that I am good at
Except for children..
I'm a natural with children
I've been told so many times, and I know it to
even thou I know people that would say otherwise
But I also know that they say the because they don't know me
and because they don't see me for who I am
They only see the person that they have pushed me to be around them
Some people might know who I'm talking about
even thou I'm not saying any names
the people I talk about won't know it, they will never know

You don't know who you are
or what I talk about
You don't know what you've done
and you will never know
What you've done and said
Oh how I've hurt from you
I'm growing from this pain
I'm getting stronger now
I know who I am
I know what I want
you're not a part of me
you will never be
you lose
you've lost
I will never talk to you
and you will never know

That you were the one that made me strong

But Hugs and Kisses

Okay

Okay so last post was a short post
had to run from the thunder, but had barely closed down my computer before the thunder stopped.. hmm..

At least I had time to go downstairs to find that I had a letter
A letter that made me sooo nervous..
I didn't know if I would dare to open it
But I had to, been waiting for it for so long..

From the Police..
Sounds bad right?
Why do you think I was nervous?
don't know what to call it
something about a extract from the swedish Criminal Records Act
Still sounds bad right?
Nervous nervous..
Didn't want to see if it would be bad
But I opened it
and omg the relief!
What I read was " The register contains no information regarding the Above-named."

So now I just need one more paper..
Will hopefully get that next week..
Wish me luck!

But Hugs and Kisses

Thank you!

Okay as you all can see..
I've got a new banner and background!
All thanks to my fabulous Tyra who made them for me :)

Didn't even take long, so envious of her sometimes, being talented like that, I want it to :O
I've got other talents though!
I can act ;)
Really love acting, I do, and I'm good at it..

And Ooops time to turn off the PC, Thunder! and I wanted to take a bath!
See you soon

But Hugs and Kisses

So Cold

I'm freezing
Seriously thinking of putting myself under my duvet and never come back out!
Well.. Maybe I'll put on the heater before I get under cover ;)

Saturday.. And I woke up at seven.. not so fun.. Why can't I ever sleep when I want to?
Not doing much today thou
Seen Lemonade mouth, all roads lead home and right now I'm watching Shake it up..
I know, I'm twenty years old and shouldn't be watching "kid stuff" but it's kind of hilarious.
I love it!

Want to watch something else to, I've only got a few more episodes to see..
Any suggestions? :D

Any ways.. maybe I'll just start watching Americas next top model again.. hmm wonder where I was XD

But Hugs and Kisses

Twitter

Okay thes tweets are not mine originally so I'm not going pretend that they are they are QuestionsHP's

But I love them and want to save them and share them with you, yea YOU!

here's a list

Our house has Neville Longbottom. Your argument is invalid. #GryffindorPride
Soo sweet

Because a group of lions is called a PRIDE of lions, #GryffindorPridecomes naturally.
even thou my fave houses are Hufflepuff and Slytherin!


Because Snape was more of a Gryffindor than a Slytherin #GryffindorPride
Agreed!

Pettigrew is the only known Gryffindor death eater, but that shouldn't tarnish the name of Gryffindor! #GryffindorPride
So true

Never use Wormtail as an example, Slytherin had Snape who was deep down a Gryffindor #GryffindorPride
"One of them was a Slytherin and he was probably the bravest man I ever knew."


Never use Wormtail as an example, Hufflepuff students still wore the 'Potter Stinks' badge, not all of them are friendly. #GryffindorPride
But I am!



Never use Wormtail as an example, Lockhart and Quirrel were Ravenclaws, they weren't exactly, intelligent. #GryffindorPride
No, they really weren't!

Just because I Have no life ;)

I sort of want to watch telly
But I kind of don't
Make sence?

My LIFE doesn't make sence without you!

But Hugs and Kisses

Just a memory

About "Just Because"
I remember another dream about my sister trying to kill me
and the reason why I didn't write that one dow in "Just because"
Is that I did not remember it at that very moment, and it wasn't just her
Have you ever seen the movie dreamcatcher?
Well I hadn't
not when I had this dream
You know how the monsters look like
Their mouths opens up standing if you understand what I'm talking about?
well anyways..
I dreamed that time, that all the members of my family were those kind of monsters
Chasing me, trying their best to kill me or make me like them..
It wasn't fun and it wasn't easy But I managed to run and hide!

A couple of months later I saw dreamcatcher and I recognized the monsters..
How strange is that?
Dream about the monsters, before you know they exist ;)

But Hugs and Kisses

More dreams

I had a strange but lovely dream tonight.
I was at a carnival with a friend and suddenly we see a girl crying,
I Start to walk towards her but my friend tak my arm and wisper "What are you doing?"
I tell her that The girl is crying I'm going to ask what's the matter
So I walk up to the girl and she's lost her parents she says so I decide to help her find them
My friend gets cross with me and leaves she doesn't want to help..

So I walk around with this five year old girl everywhere to find her parents, they are nowhere to be seen
But after a wile, at the top os a stone stair she suddenly says "We don't have to find my parents"
"What? Why?"
"That's my brother"
I see her pointing at a very good looking boy at the bottom of the stairs.
So we go down to him
"There you are, you stupid girl, why did you get lost, you know that mom and dad doesn''t have time to look for you, com on we are late to the wedding" her brother says harshley and walks off.
The girl looks up at me with a sad smile.
I wisper to her with a laugh in my voice and a twinkle in my eye
"I think I'm coming with you so your brother don't get lost" ;)

While walking up the stairs her brother suddenly walks beside me
I'm a bit cross with him for how he treated the girl
but he walks closer
his arm strokes mine
the back off his hand touches mine
he looks at me with a smile and a warmth that I have never seen in anyone before
His smile gets bigger and i blush and we both start laughing, he takes my hand and his sisters hand
Kiss his sister on the head and tells her he Loves her.
and looks back at me
I'm not angry with him any more

We arrive at the wedding that his parent have arranged
and it's beautiful.
In the late evening The boy and I run around chasing eachother in a castle
he catches me from behind, turn me around to face him and kisses me
It was wonderful and lasted forever. then I woke up..
I wanted to goo back to sleep, to dream more XD but you never get what you want when it comes to dreams do you? :)

But now to other things, I found a blog today, a blog that was very interesting (It's in swedish thou so I don't think all of you will understand what is written)
It is a blog written by one of the sweetest girls I know, and I really need to tell her how wonderful she is, Mjum Mjum, I'm talking about you!
Another blog I need to remember to read, to see what is going on in her life at the moment..

Trying to get the blog of a friend but I can't seem to find it.. Sometime possibly ;)

And two other blogs I really enjoy reading is Tyra (english/swedish) and Frida (Swedish)
Frida Just started a new one since she couldn't get in to her old one (also swedish)

Now, I think that's all from me for right now, might be back later, I am going to get better at this.
I am going to be a not new but improved me ;)
Lots of love x
See ya'll

But Hugs and Kisses 

Nom nom nom

first of all I want to apologize for my terrible spelling last post,
So tired and couldn't be asked to read through it all again XD

I've been very bad at posting these last few months, 

not really much to say as it is, even thou lots have happened..

Not sure I want to tell you about it all..

*wisper*

If I tell you, will you promise to keep it quiet? 

I've fallen, fallen rock hard,

Well I fell years ago and hit my head real hard and now it's all coming back to me.

has he fallen too?

Sssh don't tell him my thoughts, it's our little secret ;)

I've been to Bournemouth twice ;) well the first time was acctually before I wrote the last post but still ;)
Managed to go there at fullmoon both times that is a bit silly but I like it. I love going there I have a really amazing time even thou I'm shy when I first get there but after a bit there is loads of jokes and laughter. I will miss them when I return to Sweden!
Thank you Carl, Losha and Max you are so wonderful! x

Secrets are best keapt quiet

secrets are not to share

Leave it between us to

this secret that I'm telling you.

But Hugs and Kisses

Just because

Why is it, you think, that every time I dream about my sister it happens to be a nightmare?

I remember at least three..

First I dream that i rida a horse and fall off the horse rears and the horses face is my sisters, with this evil smile, I see the hoof com closer just before the hoof hits my face and I get killed, I wake up..

Second.. I dream she is visiting and I tell her something she doesn't like and she throws plates at me you can see on her face that she is trying to kill me..

Third.. She kills a one year old boy she was supposed to care for.. the shi tries to kill his parents and me and some other people that I can't remember who they were :O

Anyway.. Just putting this up 'cause I haven't put anything up in quite a while XD

But Hugs and Kisses