Yet another day has passed

At the moment I'm just very annoyed and feel like giving up, but I know I'm not going to because I would feel more like a failure than I already do..

We had a small "test" today.. lot of verbs and how to conjugate them..
I failed big time.. 30 of 147..
Es la vida, creo que..

Anyways.. What else to say, going to watch a horror movie today! La Orfanato, "The orpanage" Already seen it so I will most likely not get frightened.. that is to bad.. but somehow good since I have to walk to the apartement all by myself.. about twenty minutes at least. It will be okay!

And I vant it to be the.. 12? of December I think it was, I want to know if I will study from January.. We get to know so late if we get in or not! annoying.

Okay so yet another small post.. Maybe I'll write more soon! Have fun

But Hugs and Kisses

Mmm

Juegas con mi corazón
Mi corazón se ha roto

Nunca puedes arreglar

Nadie puedes reparar

Any ways, just felt that I should write again, it´s way to long between the times..

Ah well..
I have a lot on my mind a lot on my plate.

I'm not sure I want to come back to sweden, I'm not sure I want to stay here.. I just ant to run away and never be found.

But, some more hapy things!
A friend of mine got a girl just a few days ago, so sad that i can't meet her yet would be nice to smell the little one.

I need to get a boyfriend so that I can get my own child!
Just to bad that this one guy have made it so that I can't be with just anyone, it has to be him!

He s the one that makes me want to come back, yet he is the one that makes me want to run and hide!
To never feel, anything, ever again.

Okay this was a short, depressing post.. but well.. some other time maybe..

Hope you are all fine though!

But Hugs and Kisses

La Historia

 At class today our teacher got us to listen o a song,

very beautiful. I fell in love, it is a very sad story.

It's the song: La historia de Juan by Juanes

 

Here is the original lyrics, spanish:

 

Esta es la historia de Juan

El niño que nadie amó
Que por las calles creció

Buscando el amor bajo el sol
Su madre lo abandonó
Su padre lo maltrató
Su casa fue un callejón
Su cama un cartón su amigo Dios
Juan preguntó por amor
Y el mundo se lo negó
Juan preguntó por honor
Y el mundo le dió deshonor
Juan preguntó por perdón
Y el mundo lo lastimó
Juan preguntó y preguntó Y el mundo jamás lo escuchó

El sólo quizo jugar

El sólo quizo soñar

El sólo quizo amar
Pero el mundo lo olvidó
El sólo quizo volar

El sólo quizo cantar

El sólo quizo amar
Pero el mundo lo olvidó

Tan fuerte fue su dolor

Que un día se lo llevó
Tan fuerte fue su dolor

Que su corazón se apagó
Tan fuerte fue su temor

Que un día solo lloró
Tan fuerte fue su temor

Que un día su luz se apagó

El sólo quizo jugar

El sólo quizo soñar

El sólo quizo amar
Pero el mundo lo olvidó

 

And here is a translation:

This is the story of Juan
The child nobody loved
So the streets grew
Looking for love in the sun
His mother abandoned him
His father abused him
His house was an alley
  His bed was cardboard box, his friend God 
  Juan asked for love
And the world denied him
Juan asked for honor
And the world gave dishonor
Juan asked for forgiveness
And the world hurt him
  Juan asked and asked

And the world never heard

He only wanted to play

He only wanted to dream

He only wanted to love
  But the world forgot
He only wanted to fly

He only wanted to sing

He only wanted  to love
But the world forgot

So strong was the pain

That one day led him
So strong was his pain

That his heart went out
So strong was his fear

That one day he just cried
So strong was his fear

That one day his light went out

He only wanted to play

He only wanted to dream

He only wanted to love
But the world forgot
He only wanted to fly

He only wanted to sing

He only wanted to love
But the world forgot

 

And a link to the musicvideo:

La historia de Juan - Juanes

Just because I'm awsooome!

Okay, so first I went in to the centro to buy one book..
I knew wen I went there what I wanted so it was just to find a bookstore,
or so I thught. First one didn't have the series at all, the second bookstore only had the others in the series..
but the third bookstore!
Now, finally! And I didn't just buy one as I had planned.. I bought two, They were only 7 and 7.50 € So not very expensive, can't wait to buy the other five!

Then I went to the beach.. It was so light I was just going to close my eyes for a little bit and suddenly it as an hour later! I'm a bit red now, but well.. that is life!

And then I went for a walk just felt like I needed to do that! And ended up at a parade of some sort, it was BEAUTIFUL!

Sooo...

... I don't know what to say, as usual, but I'll write something anyways, as usual.

Well if I start with this weekend then!

Saturday Mandy, Johanna and I went to town to look around, we ate some paella and som helados (icecream).
We walked around for about six hours, did not really feel like it but apparently!
Took some photos and such, not much else happened that day..

Okay, then how about sunday?

Mandy, Johanna, Jasmine and I took a bus to Sevilla, beautiful town!
I wouldn't want to live there (it's a town) but still beautiful!
We went to Santa cruz, to Plaza de España, the cathedral, garden of Maria Luisa or what's it called.
We even found a sort of marketplace with things from all over the world, though not from sweden that we could find anyways.

Santa Cruz

The cathedral

Plaza de España

Garden Maria Luisa

 

And with three ours bus there and three hours back.. Ofc I wrote a poem or two! just because it's me.

Once you were a dream
Then you were my life
Now you are a story

 

***

 

Run away and I won't catch you
I will wait

Run away I won't run after
Just hoping you'll come back

Tired of letting you go!

And now what? New week new challenges!
Nothing much yesterday, school, beach.. yeah, not much!
And today, School, volleyball, I'm hurt.. Think I landed on a stone when I tried to get the ball some time.. so I will have a big bruise omorrow. ah well thet's life!
After the games I Took a swim in the sea and now I'm here!

Thinking.. and another "poem" came to me!

So many questions that want an answer
So many tears to turn to laughter
Don't break down
You are a friend of mine

I am always here for you

But Hugs and Kisses