So tired

Okay so this with more posts.. did not tur out so well apparently!
But still, I'll just write when I feel like it, I'm so tired all the time now and can't be bothered to do anything!
I really need something to occupie my time, like a job or studies och something, I can't just sit at home staring and looking, trying to find something to do! It's not me and and it's not what I want to spend my days doing..

At the moment just staring at different television series, like Awkward, Victorious, Switched at birth and others, but they all com to an end and I find myself staring at the wall having nothing to do..

Anyways, I have a friend, we didn't speak for about four or five months but everything seems to work out now, we are talking again and putting the past behind us, just hope that it will continue, that it won't fall apart again, I don't think I could handle that, because this friend is the best thing that ever happened to me.
I should probably not say that because I have a lot of really great friends but this one, really has a special place in my live, and always will have!

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Cuddle

Okay so now it's the end of the week.. Sunday non the less and still no sign from you.
Ah well, that's life I guess..

So now I'm back in my appartement, don't know what to do though.. Have to look for a job but that's how it's supposed to be I guess! So while I try to figure things out I will do some crosstitches? and see where my life will lead me next. Some other amazing place, with other amazing people I hope!

Oh and yesterday I really found myself wanting someone tu cuddle with, I had a visitor the whole day that was so cosy and cuddly I wanted him to stay when he had to go, very mean of you Jenna to take Yoda from me! not nice.. ah well, I guess you wanted to cuddle with someone as well when your bf left you.. but you know.. He will come back.. I've heard they always do. And when he does I want to borrow your dog some more.

So this will be a random post, hope you don't mind, my head is just in space at the moment and I sort of like it sometimes but not when it stays to long..

I will write again soon, one of my non new year resolutions, write more often!

But Hugs and Kisses

13-01-02

It will happen again.
But this time I'll make it right
and not rush in to anything

But that was not what I wanted to talk to you about!
What I wanted to say was just that I did not get in too school, So I'm going to figure out my next step, my next move.
And see how that can lead me to my goal, everything happens for a reason as I've always believed, so there is most likely a reason for this to be as well.

Any ways I need to find a job, the first thing I actually did when I saw that I was not accepted to the school was to apply for a job, so I'm actually proud of myself because if this had been a year ago I would not have, I would have let this bring me down and I would have been staring at the tv or something so I've come a long way, I'm not nearly close to where I want to be, but I'm getting there. I'm happier, more open and stronger, there is only one thing that could break me completely now, and I know what that is so I'm not going to let it happen, I'm going to be ready for everything that comes my way, just bring it on!

Well sweet dreams

But Hugs and Kisses

2013!

Okay, New year, new possibilities, only thing is.. I don't know what to do this year!

Well, I never know wht to do but I'll figure something out as I usually do!

Before I go on with this new chapter (year) of my life I want to thank everyone that I met during this last year for everythig that they've tought me, special thanks to all the new people I met in Spain while I was there for twelve weeks, you truly are amazing people, I have grown so much thanks to you and now I am closer to knowing who I am, and who I want to be for the rest of my life.

And also thank you to the two awsome people that made my new years eve to an awsome event though we were only three people there, I had so much fun and I am so happy that you two were the people that I got to go in to the new year with, You don't have to have fifty persons around you or go to the biggest parties, if you just have people you can trust it does not matter how many you are.

I wish I could have had at least two more persons there though, not because I did not have as much fun without them as I would have had with them but because I wish to have them in my life for a very long time and want to share all my moments with them I hope we will have a lot of good memories from other "events" instead, and I know we will because you feel like a part of me, a part I would never want to be without, a part I would never want to lose.

 

Now I don't know what more to say than I wish it was tomorrow so that I get my answer from school and that I am not going to have a new years resolution just be myself this year and do what I need to do to fell good, keep away from the people that puts me down and keep to the people that helps me up. With me you always get a second chance but to gain my trust again takes time. I've been hurt many times and it is not something that I want to go through more times than necsessary.

Well now to a happier time, New year!

Don't stop me now!
Hope it will all be well for all of you.

But Hugs and Kisses

Cher - Strong enough

Just to start somewhere! Haha no well.. I dont have much to write any ways.. or probaly have like loads but I don't know what..

Leann Rimes - Can't find the moonlight

New people, seem to be really nice all three of them! Haven't spoke much to them.. But I don't speak much to people over all...

Britney Spears - Stronger

And yeah.. Friday night.. (friday to saturday) I had a dream.. and in that dream Everyone spoke in spanish, that was really nice... sort of..

Outlandish - Aicha

Think I'm having a nostalgic night tonight, some random song from my past thet I suddenly started thinking of withut a reason!

Leann Rimes - Life goes on

And yeah.. today it was Mandys birthday som we sang in class and hade cake after the last class, it was rather nice, good cake :)

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Wow

Okay, this evening has been an evening of pure wow factor!

Went in to the centro with Renée, Mandy, Verena and Johanna we went to look at the view from a restaurant that is on like the 15 floor or something, the view is amazing. Then "we" made a reservation for Renée, Verena and I to eat there this evening. but we were not going to eat until half past eight so we went to the cinema to see a movie, we chose Lo imposible even though Renée had already seen it once.

For the people out there that have not heard of the movie, it is a movie based on a family that was in Thailand during the tsunami, they were in the tsunami.. it is a very moving story, I, for one, cried through the whole movie. Even though it was in Spanish and I didn't understand all the words, the emotions were really clear and you could feel the psychological pain. I am glad I got to see it in the theaters the first time I saw it.

And after the movie we went to the restaurant again after a quick stop at another place where we had something to drink (milkshake for me) and spoke a little bit before the reservation.

The food was amazing I had the Iberian fulfilled puff pastry sirlon with raisins, nuts and blueberry sauce as main course and for desert I had "Bizanga fantasy with cream of Bentomiz wine". Bothe courses where really amazing, here you have some pictures..

My milkshake

The main course

And desert.

All this amazing food made me very hungry so I am going to sleep now!

But Hugs and Kisses

Yet another day has passed

At the moment I'm just very annoyed and feel like giving up, but I know I'm not going to because I would feel more like a failure than I already do..

We had a small "test" today.. lot of verbs and how to conjugate them..
I failed big time.. 30 of 147..
Es la vida, creo que..

Anyways.. What else to say, going to watch a horror movie today! La Orfanato, "The orpanage" Already seen it so I will most likely not get frightened.. that is to bad.. but somehow good since I have to walk to the apartement all by myself.. about twenty minutes at least. It will be okay!

And I vant it to be the.. 12? of December I think it was, I want to know if I will study from January.. We get to know so late if we get in or not! annoying.

Okay so yet another small post.. Maybe I'll write more soon! Have fun

But Hugs and Kisses